I find it difficult to live without worry because of the many obvious obstacles in my path. I worry about my acceptance to film school, which ultimately leads to stress over my current school work. I can't seem to enjoy myself as much as I used to because of the constant pressure I put on myself. When I feel overwhelmed by an upcoming test, I slowly move away and think of a paper I must complete for another class.. then I detach myself from the current semester and think of the next few semesters I have left; and the tests, papers, and homework they will require. Finally, I face the hardship of completing a portfolio, which is the make-or-break as far as getting accepted is concerned.
Right now, I am finding an exit. I have a Math exam waiting for me at 9am this Saturday. Because of my anxiety and stress, I cannot concentrate and apply myself to understand how to do any of the problems. My desk is filled with more scribbled papers than an Immigration office and all I can think of is throwing them all away. Yet when all hope is lost and I look at a math probem and it tells me to solve; what comes to mind are my own problems which I am in pursuit of solving, and I smile at the irony.
Right now, I am finding an exit. I have a Math exam waiting for me at 9am this Saturday. Because of my anxiety and stress, I cannot concentrate and apply myself to understand how to do any of the problems. My desk is filled with more scribbled papers than an Immigration office and all I can think of is throwing them all away. Yet when all hope is lost and I look at a math probem and it tells me to solve; what comes to mind are my own problems which I am in pursuit of solving, and I smile at the irony.
